I went through a brief dedicated, excited phase in my job search. It's a new year! Companies are hiring again! Ooh, and I've even figured out better how to find jobs that could be a good fit.
This culminated recently in actually talking to an HR representative on the phone and being asked to do a writing exercise. It's been a week since I sent it to them, and the longer it takes to hear back, the more I expect bad news.
In a few more months, "recent graduate" will be an even more inaccurate description of myself. I was skimming through this article on youth unemployment, and it played into my fears of being passed over as "damaged goods" for newer grads.
My earlier outlook is being replaced by a new motivation, fear. Now is the short time when companies are hiring and I'm from the most recent graduating class (January grads don't count). I don't know when this new year hiring spurt is going to end. I can't bring myself to believe it's a larger change in employment. It's here now, but it will end soon until later. By the time they hire again, there will be even more people to compete against.
I don't know which approach makes it easier to force myself to crank through the internet re-writing cover letters and applying to jobs. Is it the bubbling of hope? Now is the time when I'll find a job! Or is it the panic? If I don't get a job now, I'll be stuck juggling part-time jobs indefinitely.
I keep reminding others that desperation counts against them in the jobhunt. I keep telling others not to worry and something will come along as long as they keep looking. I have to say these things. I need the reminder.